January 21 2022: Every Wish is a Command, I Am Closer To Finding Neverland

Some highlights of my "day off" from school:

The amiable and helpful HR ladies who helped me with my box office job paperwork. One specific lady was in training and profusely thanked me for being so patient with her as she was learning.

I wore my cozy hat with a pom-pom on it that brought me joy.

It was freezing outside, so I used my Starbucks gift card as an excuse for a hot drink and egg sandwich after my meeting.

The comfort musicals I was listening to (don't judge me) but Percy Jackson, Something Rotten, Six, Finding Neverland, Hadestown absolutely SLAP.

Getting a chocolate pumpkin muffin from the friendly girls in the lounge who were baking them.

The sunset tonight was stunning. I sat there for a few minutes staring at it silently, appreciating the ambiance.

Having dinner with my roommates and enjoying good conversation.

Listening to a podcast (okay, okay, it was Voice Memos on Spotify) and coloring on the floor in front of my roommates' door as we discussed the stuff on our minds.

All my string lights turned on, and sitting in the dark, enjoying the smile it brought me.

I sent voice memos to my loved ones that I know need reminding of love and/or struggling with loneliness or personal afflictions.

This day had a lot of "little moments" that needed to be acknowledged. Life is complex and challenging, and you feel hopeless, without a purpose or meaning. It can drag you down into a mindset of doubt about your capabilities. You feel worthless, desperate, angry, impatient with yourself for your feelings.

Know when things happen that make you upset. Communicate feelings with the ones you love because they are there for you just as much as you care for them. Feel your feelings, breathe, and remember, you can be your own company. Working on yourself is the key to success.

You deserve all the sunsets you see because it means you survived another day. Sunrises are cherished, but sunsets aren't recognized as much as they should be. I'm here to say that sunsets don't have to mean a closed book---they're an opportunity in the cooler hours of the day to reset. Since the day feels calmer, reading a book before bed, journaling, or listening to your favorite musical and jotting down nonsense (guilty) can do wonders. It reminds you that you are human. You are capable of all you wish to achieve.

Overworking yourself is something that I think everyone struggles with at one point. I'm having a slump writing my novel right now. I have the time, just not the motivation to do it yet. And that's okay (I have to keep reminding myself of that)

Keep going. Find your reason: whether it be a hobby, passion, or a person. Take time for yourself. You may find comfort in the music notes of your crafted playlist or journal entry.

Motivation comes from self-care and knowing what you need personally and mentally. Breathing is the only requirement of a day. Feel your beating heart and remember who loves you, but most importantly, how much you could love yourself if you gave yourself the chance to do so.