November 24th: No Thoughts, Only Christmas Lights

Heyo. I’m back. The day before Thanksgiving. It’s a riot. Currently driving to see my extended family with a dog lying on my lap because our other car decided to tap out. It’s all good, she’s warm and cuddly. We’re jamming to my graduation playlist. I’m trying to make my dad appreciate Maroon 5. Since it’s getting super dark really soon now, I can’t read my book even though I REALLY want to. Again but Better is amazing, check it out if ever feel alone and need a good laugh. The only thing that’s been currently occupying my mind is the Christmas lights that are started popping up on houses. I was headed home yesterday in the dark, glimpsing the bright illuminated lights. I even took another turn around the block to the see the lights, listening to my comfort playlist. My comfort zone is my enemy, however, and I want to get better acquainted with the people I’m attending college with. That’s my goal for second semester. Talk to people, Abby, that’s why you went to college. To have fun and connect with others. But I’m not worrying about that tonight. It’s nice to just sit in a car with my family, listen to music like old times. For these next few days, I’ll be taking in the ambiance of the holidays with my cousins I haven’t in a long time. Enjoy yourself tomorrow, even if you’re surrounded by people you barely talk to. Have an extra slice of pie. Check out the new wholesomesimon video about accepting loneliness:

https://youtu.be/q6o3ipRkFc0

My email is always open if anyone’s feeling the seasonal depression. I know it’s for sure been bothersome for me, at least.

Believe that things can get better. Remember that if you’re still trying and fighting, you’re not struggling with depression/mental illness, it’s struggling with you. Trust in the ones you love and confide in. They’ll take the time to listen and you’re not ever a burden to them. Happy Thanksgiving!