November 8th: I know that’s it gonna be fine, open your eyes, shut up and give it a try

Breathing actually helps you think. It's a shocking concept.

My seminar teacher had us do a breathing exercise today, meditation style. For five minutes, we were supposed to acknowledge our incoming thoughts and then let them go. The objective was to keep our minds blank. The five minutes went by faster than I thought they would. It made me aware that we need to just stop sometimes, and breathe and just exist as a human.

My English teacher surprised us with apple cider donuts from Trader Joe's, which was a nice change of pace. It was sort of a thank you for all the wacky shenanigans he's pulled this semester.

I'll admit, getting through today was tough. It's hard to confess that some days are better than others will be. The discussions about where I'm going to live next year, money, scholarships, finding a job, it's creeping up on me.

My mom wants me to join a club. I'm searching up book publishing workshops to get involved in. I'm looking for new opportunities to better serve me in the future.

I had an engaging discussion with my roommate about my own personal well being and if it's a burden, why I'm still putting myself through unnecessary suffering.

I told her that I wasn't sure why I put so much pressure on myself. I don't mean to. I need to get better at not stressing about the future. I'm really bad about that.

The unknown terrifies me. I want to have a grip on it, but I know I can't and won't. It's something that I need to accept.

Breathe. Do what you can. Stretch out your shoulders with some much-needed yoga.

Do something for yourself, even if you think it's selfish or you don't deserve it.

You do. You deserve every sunrise, every changing leaf, every smile.

Keep smiling. It's okay to have bad days. But try to find the good in them as well <3

I glanced down and saw a ladybug on the sidewalk today. A little while later, another landed on my window when I was gazing out.

Don't forget to notice the little things.