September Soliloquies 9/5/22

hello, september! it has been a few months, and I want to give an update on my life!

i have finished the third physical writing journal of my college experience, and I'm super proud of that accomplishment. it's full of plenty of goals and aspirations that I admittedly haven't been prioritizing in my life as of recently. there are always more exciting activities besides work or scrolling endlessly on tiktok. i want to be a person that prioritizes what i love to do first and foremost--i won't be motivated otherwise. i have gained a lot of insight regarding how i picture my life and myself inside it. i'm learning to be okay with being alone as my always-present friend. i take pictures and think to myself, 'i'll write that blog post soon,' but never get around it to it. 'i'll do it tomorrow, or 'i don't really feel like it can't be excuses anymore.

if i love to do something, it won't drain me as much as i think it will. turning on a good playlist and just spilling my thoughts onto pages is what has benefited me as long as i can look back on it. i love sharing my experiences the way I'd like to view from creators I have invested my time in. the quiet podcasts, the hidden youtubers that not many people know, and the stories buried underneath so much unauthentic junk.

to be fully invested in me is to put the things i love up with my essential priorities. this weekend, i detached from socializing except for the people i was with, and it was refreshing to have that perspective. i did miss my laptop, though, and just the ability to write fast and with a familiar progression.

i know I don't post often, but I will try to make it more of a habit. to the people who take time out of their days to view my words, I appreciate you very much. because of you, I still feel like these posts are important, at least to one person.